HOW AM I PURITY?

By Mary Brennan

The fact is God created us as pure beings. I accepted that. I knew my motives and intentions in my life experiences were pure. But I did not fully know myself as pure, unbeknowst to myself.

Subconscious conditioning
The missing link was locked in the subconscious forgotten long ago. It was discovered through questions and answers that brought out a hidden false belief that I needed to follow a path of intellectual wisdom, false wisdom that opposed the heart wisdom that was natural to my Being as the God Flame that I AM. It all stemmed from a traumatic moment when I believed that my earthly father was going to leave our family. As he left the dining room where my sisters and mother sat, my dad and mom were in an argument that subsequently caused my dad to get up and walk out of the house as if he was never coming back. I went out begging him to stay crying all the way. 

As a child, or as a teenager, you may not know that a parent may just need to leave and cool off a bit. The child has the inner sense, in moments like these, to being abandoned or rejected. You may ask how does that affect your sense of purity? In a word, the subconscious. The subconscious mind can take over the conscious mind unknowingly. The child, the inner child, the soul, wanted to please her father. So she took the values of her father and made them her own, which were not truly hers in the first place.

In my case, my father rejected the feminine in himself, and saw only the father as something of value, and the mother, the one who followed the heart and her feeling was rejected. I can remember my dad saying he wanted to be a lawyer, but his dad wanted him to be an accountant, which is what he did for 33 years of his life until he got to do something he really enjoyed doing, and that was teaching at the university. So I can see how the "sins of the father go from generation to generation" until someone says, "Thus far and no farther!" 

The Lesson
The lesson is that if you are not following your heart doing what your heart knows to be your heart's desire, then you are suppressing the feminine within you, the purity of the Mother who loves God through the heart. You are rejecting the Mother part of yourself, the Mother who comes from the heart, who is wise and pure, because she nurtures the child man/child woman, and knows exactly what to give and to withhold as a discipline.

Wherever you are rejecting Mother, it spreads into other parts of your life. You are not happy as you could be. You feel stymied in some way. At least, I was able to fulfill something I knew I was guided to do, and that was becoming a school teacher of young children, and so my mother instinct was somewhat intact. And I knew I had a heart to give. But there was always that wisdom thing that intellectual poweress is something of value. 

So can I be a pure being when not coming from the heart registered and taken in by the subconscious mind, the soul? To a certain point, but not fully. How can one Be? My saving grace was my faith and hope, and love for God that led me to these teachings. I began to allow Divine Direction in my life, which turns out to be following my heart's desire. I accepted the rosaries and the Pronouncement of Being and Restoration prayers and mantras to my heart to understand who I AM

Wanting More
I wanted to know and Be the pure God Flame that I AM, and so I began by sending love to God, and I felt the love returned to my heart. And, as I asked for guidance and God's help to Be More, More I AM, I began to see what I needed to change in my life. I saw that I was entertaining thoughts and feelings that were negative to my well-being as self-criticism and self-condemnation. And that I needed to be alert to when they came up, which could be on the most trivial mundane things, but to pay attention and immediately made judgment calls and positive affirmations. 

I knew what I wanted in life was not all my experience at the time. So through faith and trust in God, and my earnest desire I received the gifts the Ascended Masters have given me over the years. And I read and recalled the dictations that gave me hope, and I was directed to teachings that would help me grow.

As we live in the material dualistic world where there are opposites such as, full/empty, cold/hot, above/below, we see the opposites, and therefore believe that there is an opposite to Purity, which IS. It just IS, just as there IS Truth. Purity IS who you are. Making mistakes does not make you impure. You can change a mistake by learning from it and Be More. The Purity you are can never be changed. It is who you are: a Pure Being.